Massachusetts State Police Trooper Nicholas Guarino reads entries from Brian Walshe's search history in court from the witness stand. Walshe, who denies killing his wife Ana Walshe, pleaded guilty last month to misleading police and improper conveyance of a human body. Her body has not been found.

The biggest lie in self-help is this: You don’t “find” yourself. People spend their whole lives searching, as if who they are is buried somewhere far away. But you’re not hidden treasure... You’re not waiting under a rock to be discovered. You don’t find yourself. You invent yourself. That’s why the Torah says: לא בשמים היא It’s not in Heaven. Not distant. It’s right here; in your mouth, your heart, your action. Life isn’t about discovering who you are. It’s about tearing away the false picture,